After allegedly posting her farewell note on social media, a Southern University and A&M College (SU), a college student was found dead in the Mississippi River, after her family became concerned about her fate.
Miller, whose age has not been revealed, attended an HBCU college in Baton Rouge, Louisiana.
The Southern University Jaguars cheerleader shared a lengthy message that has her family and friends worried on her Instagram account.
In the post which has now racked up over 65,000 likes, Miller spoke about alleged suicidal thoughts during her younger years and how long she fought urges.
“May this day bring me rest and peace,” Miller wrote. “I’ve fought that urge since my early teens. I’ve given this life all the fight I had. To everyone who has come into my life, I’m so grateful and I can only imagine how can that find you. I’ve been surrounded by people who maybe honestly thought I was fine, but it’s been a while since I was.
The student then reflects on coping with Covid, suffering from an injury and feeling lonely most of the time.
“I have struggled so much this year alone. From covid, to tearing my acl, to almost failing all of my classes,” Miller wrote. “To the people in my life, I pray that you learn to express your feelings and to always get help!!! I failed and I’m afraid it’s too late.
Miller then speaks directly to her mother, whom she thanks and reassures her that she is at peace and acknowledges that she had written suicidal notes before, but was at her breaking point this time.
“MOM, THANK YOU SO MUCH, I pray you know I’m resting now! You would have given anything to see me happy, you gave anything to see me happy,” Miller wrote. “I’m happy in the water where everything is calm and peaceful.I have written so many suicide notes in my life but finally, I have reached my end.
She wrote that she hoped it would teach people to watch out for their “strong” friends and always be there. Miller said she felt like she was letting so many people down and losing her connection to God.
“I hope this teaches everyone to watch out for your ‘strong’ friends, always be there! I contradict myself but NEVER give up!!! I know I’m letting a lot of people down by what I’m about to do. to do,” Miller wrote. “But…the truth is I’ve let so many people down already throughout my life and it’s just unbearable. I’ve lost my connection to God. The devil seems to have won. and that’s ok, I don’t blame anyone for that!
She concluded her message by apologizing to all her family and friends, revealing that she tried to make everyone in her life happy. While she loved everyone in her life, she was tired of fighting and hoped her loved ones would find peace in her decision.
“I thank everyone for everything they’ve done and I’m sorry, I’m so sorry. But thinking about how everyone would feel about my death isn’t enough either, I tried to please and to make everyone happy all my life. I’ve been dead inside too long. To everyone I love, just remember it’s not your fault and I pray that you don’t. find no guilt in my situation,” Miller wrote. “To my grandpa…I wish you were here to tell me I’m stupid, to tell me it’s not worth it, but you left me and found your own peace.”
“I’ve always been stubborn and prideful, just like you,” she continued. “I’ve always dreamed of becoming as many things as I am today, but they’re not enough. I’m not enough. I haven’t felt enough for a while.. but I say all of this to say that I’m done fighting My battle is over and I pray that everyone finds peace in this.
Southern University and A&M College released a statement via Twitter expressing their deepest sorrow for Miller’s untimely passing, noting that she was originally from Texas and majored in agriculture.
“Our entire college community is deeply saddened by the untimely death of Arlana Miller, a freshman majoring in agriculture at the Baton Rouge campus,” the tweet read. “Arlana was originally from Texas and one of our cheerleaders from Southern University.”
The school extends its deepest condolences to Miller’s family, friends and others and provides guidance for those who may need additional support during this dark time.
“We offer our deepest prayers and condolences to her family, classmates, teammates and all who knew and loved her. The mental and physical wellbeing of our students is one of the University’s highest priorities,” the tweet read. “Therefore, our University Counseling Center (UCC) and our partners are available for any students who may need support during this difficult time.”
The Southern University Jaguars tweeted their condolences to Miller and his family, the SU cheerleading team and his friends. The school also mentions offering bereavement counseling to anyone in need.
“Jaguar Nation, we mourn the loss of Arlana Miller, a freshman cheerleader from Southern University,” the tweet read. “We ask for your prayers, love and support. Our deepest condolences to the Miller family, SU Cheer and friends. We love you Arlana #ForeverJag Bereavement counseling is available.
Many people affected by Miller’s story have shared their feelings about his alleged suicide and are encouraging people to seek help and help those in need.
A Facebook user named Dria Derricho has spoken out about Miller’s death, encouraging others to look out for people and make sure they know you support and love them. It is not known whether Derricho knew Miller personally.
“I hate reading stuff like that, it’s so sad to think about it or even to read! To all who are struggling with these issues. These temporary feelings never last, it will get better. Keep fighting and pushing through BETTER DAYS ARE COMING!!!! I don’t think I can sleep after this,” Derricho wrote. “SUICIDE IS AT ITS MAXIMUM!!!!! YALL BETTER WAKE TF UP! PLEASE DON’T CHECK PEOPLE, BUT BE THERE FOR THEM, LOVE THEM, SUPPORT AND HELP THEM! ALL THE TIME NOT JUST TEMPORARILY! I just wish I could help in some way! Rip Arlana Miller #su #mentalhealthmatters #arlanamiller”
If you or someone you know is suffering from depression or suicidal thoughts, there are ways to get help. You can use these resources to find help for yourself, a family member, or a friend.
Call 1-800-273-TALK (8255); In Spanish 1-888-628-9454